A List of Waters
— Bryce Emley
after Tyree Daye
The truth is I’m sick / of my blood /
how I must be in some way the man /
who would teach a husband’s power /
is the sound of crashing / in his
throat / we’re water’s second try at the
world
*
We get our turn at being young
becoming the people we love
because we have to
hold our fathers like storms inside us
Break our mothers open
just to be here asking
*
When I talk about men I always mean my father
who couldn’t help wearing his skin like an ethos
whose love takes the shape of its container
who can’t remember holding his wife
by the throat like a bouquet of waterlilies
*
I learned from my mother / to object
to nothing / a wife is an anchor’s
chain / a marriage is what keeps you /
under
*
When I talk about fathers
I always mean river.
Or it’s the other way around.
We know them
how we read the earth
where water has been.
*
Father, who only knew to love
poorly, I’ve loved worse,
likeness with no weight
to ripple the surface,
as if even neglect
were a form of intimacy,
like faith: not felt,
just a longing to feel.
*
The truth is any truth / is just a version
The truth is a son / is a dry basin
Is it wrong to love a man / for what he’s made
If not love / know
If not love / rend
If not love / river
If not love
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